Rorschach

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“You see what you want to see”

Geoff Johns – Doomsday Clock
Richard Ramirez with San Francisco attorneys Randall Martin and Daro Inouye.

The Young Report – 1994

In 1994 Richard’s San Francisco defence lawyers, Michael Burt, Daro Inouye and Dorothy Bischoff, referred him for neuropsychological evaluation. The clinical psychologist retained to carry out the tests was Myla H Young, PhD, who saw Richard on three occasions on the 9th, 10th, and 28th December 1994, post his LA convictions. These meetings occurred both at San Francisco County Jail and at San Quentin. She was to describe Richard’s intellectual, neuropsychological, and psychological functioning.

One more in a cluster of doctors, psychiatrists and psychologists who saw, tested, and evaluated him between 1985 and 2008.

What is very noticeable is Richard’s absolute refusal to discuss his childhood and family, displaying a genuine and intense protectiveness, especially where his parents were concerned. Both Myla Young and Elise Taylor draw attention to this in their reports. Because he refused to discuss his early life, Young used his medical history accounts for information. In 1994 Richard was not receiving medication for convulsions, and Young stated that prison medical records showed he had repeated administration of medicine for chronic headaches.

Young was to administer a similar set of tests to those later completed by Dale Watson in 1999, so I will avoid repeating those, however Young was to conduct a test that Watson did not, the Rorschach Test.


Inkblots

Rorschach card 5 – it’s a bat, isn’t it?

The Rorschach Test evaluates emotional functioning and personality or particular mental disorders. It was designed by psychiatrist Herman Rorschach in the early 1900s.

The test is conducted by a practitioner who sits next to a subject and presents them with ten images of symmetrical inkblots, one at a time. The practitioner asks the subject to describe what they see in the blot, such as animals or people. This process may occur repeatedly to explore whether the subject perceives anything new the next time.

The subject’s responses are then recorded and interpreted according to standardised scoring systems. For example, scoring criteria may include how typical the response is, what part of the blot the subject focuses on, or if the person sees movement in the image. The interpretation was initially designed to diagnose schizophrenia but today may aim to elicit insights about the subject’s personality, emotions, cognition, motivations, relationships, or mental health. (Psychology Today)


Report of Myla H Young. Doc 20-3.

Young recorded that, in her opinion, the most noticeable aspect of her diagnosis was that Richard suffered from severe depression to the extent that he would struggle with a pervasive sense of sadness, overwhelming anger and aloneness. Notice she says “aloneness” rather than “loneliness”. There is a subtle difference.

Report of Myla H Young. Doc 20-3

One can easily understand why. His negative feelings of self-worth contradict the portrayal of the Night Stalker character, so full of confidence, and brashness, with the “couldn’t give a damn” attitude on display in the courtroom. That image, given to him by the media, law enforcement and the public, was just an act. In slipping on the skin of the Night Stalker, Richard hid from the world what was really going on inside him. His transformation is complete; only through these psychological tests (and some of the testimonies of his friends and family) can we get a small glimpse of the real person. He played his part well.

Writ of habeas corpus, page 173

Locked away in physical and mental isolation, his disordered thoughts could not perceive what was real and what was fantasy; he became lost in the inner world of his delusional thinking.

All his coping mechanisms were taken away, and receiving no medication to treat his psychosis, depression, temporal lobe epilepsy or other neuropsychological disorders, compulsions and behaviours began to manifest, the most salient of which was seemingly masturbation.


Hands on the Table

Myla Young observed Richard’s behaviour during her time with him. She noted that “several” occasions throughout her interviews, he attempted to “sexually expose and manipulate himself”. She goes on to say, “Although he required multiple, persistent reminders, he was able to respond to my demands that he place his hands on the table for the period of time needed to complete this assessment. Mr Ramirez’s attempted masturbatory behaviour did not occur during direct administration of test items, but did occur at times of transition between tasks”.

Young’s remarks concerning this inappropriate behaviour echo Elise Taylor’s, as this was also her experience throughout her time with Richard.

“Prior to beginning work on the case, I had been informed that Mr Ramirez had displayed this sort of behaviour with other female defence team members, and, accordingly, I discussed the structure and purpose of our relationship with him when we first met, including the absolute and non-negotiable absence of any physical contact of any kind. Although he seemed to comprehend what I was saying, he displayed an almost compulsive tendency towards an extremely adolescent (and, at times, pre-adolescent) obsession with sex, including repeated discussion of masturbation, his thoughts about genitalia, and his various sexual fantasies”

Report of Elise Taylor, psychotherapist. Doc 20-3

Taylor went on to say that after many months of meetings, Richard finally realised that the nature of their relationship would not change because of his repeated discussions about sex, and initiated that subject less frequently. However, she mentions that if she tried to engage him in conversation about his early years and home life, he would once more focus on his sexualised thoughts about her.

“Even after many months of my unquestionably consistent negative response to, and dismissal of, this behaviour, it appeared as though he approached every incident with the real belief that I might respond positively. His repeated suggestions that we might have sex in the interview room were presented with a sincerity and intensity that indicated that he actually believed that this was a possibility, despite the constant presence of a guard three feet in front of a large glass window in the front of the room. Whereas one might expect that there would be some extinction of this behaviour after more than a year of repeated attempts and requests on his part, it was as though each time, he was proposing it for the first time, as though he had never mentioned it before”

Report of Elise Taylor. Doc 20-3

Report of Elise Taylor. Doc 20-3

It is not news that Ramirez had a habit of exposing himself; this compulsive behaviour seems to have escalated with prolonged incarceration, where he was not given the treatment he needed. Richard no longer had access to the recreational drugs he was self-medicating with outside in the free world, and as his anxiety, depression, headaches, neuropsychological conditions, and insomnia increased, so did his need to find a way to cope.
His female friends and associates who knew him before his arrest do not mention masturbation or exposing himself; their testimonies speak of his calmness, non-violent personality, and quietness. Jail and then prison amplified all his psychological problems, and nobody dealt with them. After all, who cares if a condemned man is physically and mentally ill?

Neither Taylor nor Young ceased their work with him; he was not violent nor aggressive. He was able to comply with their wishes that he stop.


Women – lots of them.

Ramirez received many letters and photographs from women who all found him irresistible. They fed him their sexual fantasies and semi-naked pictures, and he responded; why wouldn’t he? Locked up in a cell for twenty-three hours daily, he didn’t have much else to do. This sudden and unexpected sexualisation of him must have had a profound effect. If we are to believe the Carlo book, the juror Cindy Haden, yes, the one who “fell in love with him”, followed him to San Francisco for the very reason of getting some “alone time”. She was, according to Carlo, so excited to be near him she nearly fainted.

Those women, who queued hours to see him and, in the process, caused security concerns, were instrumental in getting him removed back to San Quentin prison, much to his annoyance. All very heady stuff for someone with his particular set of problems.


Hypersexuality

Richard Ramirez was diagnosed with frontal lobe damage and temporal lobe epilepsy; he had not been treated for either since his early teens, the symptoms of which we have already covered in THIS POST, but here’s a recap:

  • Anxiety
  • Depression
  • Memory impairments
  • Vivid hallucinations
  • Hyper-religiosity
  • Blank stare or “staring into space.”
  • Compulsions
  • Headaches
  • Insomnia
  • Paranoia
  • Fetishes

All of the above manifested at various stages of his life.

Report of Myla H Young. Doc 20-3

When a person’s frontal lobe is damaged, so is cognitive functioning, which can lead to numerous psychological and emotional problems, including hypersexuality. Our old friend Dietrich Blumer, who examined Richard pre-trial in 1986, wrote a book on the subject, THIS LINK provides an in-depth account of hypersexuality and brain disorder.

Richard’s compulsions, fetishes and preoccupation with sexual matters originate from a brain injury, his behaviour was driven by anxiety and a mental illness he was never given help with. The seizures, and personality changes, including the hyper-religiosity he also engaged in, were part of an ongoing set of neurological and psychological irregularities which every doctor who evaluated him attested to. A collection of mental impairments that have been swept aside because it is not convenient to mention them.

We are left with the mental image of a man so traumatised by the events in his life that his ability to discuss them is reduced to staring at a sequence of inkblots on cards presented to him, unable to confront, understand or rationalise the process that led him there.


“He would struggle with a pervasive sense of sadness, overwhelming anger and aloneness.“ I’d be angry, too, if I were you.

“My left hand is a Rorschach blotch all its own, a six-fingered, skin-blood-and-bone ink splatter. People see it and fly their worst fears and secret fetishes at full mast when they think they’re being discreet. They see it as strange, fascinating, ugly, beautiful, disgusting or erotic depending on what’s behind their eyes.”

Craig Clevenger, The Contortionist’s Handbook

~ Jay ~

9 responses to “Rorschach”

  1. Thanks for this brillant summary of the psych reports. I hope Lots of people read it. Especially those who have a Faible for his masturbation problem and who like to make unappropriate Jokes about it. Anyway I wonder why many of the pod Casters are such hypocrits . Thinking about his courtroom appereances .. He was really looking so beautiful and his movements were cool and elegant most of the time. Sure he had many Fans..Listening to some phonecalls like the one with Mr Dickstein I thought Richard sounded like s 14 year old boy who Was sort of summoned a bit by Dickstein. So its good that he had Doreen at his side !

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    1. The podcasters are all singing the same tired old song, that’s why. We’ve pulled them up on some of their nonsense, and they remove our comments. They don’t like being questioned when they’re wrong.

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  2. I mean Doreen helped him a lot , generelly

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    1. Yes, I believe she did.

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  3. Through my research, particularly in capital cases, I have been confronted time and time again with the dark and tragic reality that many defendants on death row are among society’s most vulnerable—those suffering from profound cognitive, emotional, and mental disabilities. And to make matters worse, they are overwhelmingly indigent, left to navigate an unforgiving system with little to no support. Their struggles do not necessarily absolve them of their actions, but they do paint a damning picture of how society treats people like Richard—people with disabilities, neurological disorders, and psychological impairments who are cast aside rather than cared for.

    In my opinion, the vast majority of people are painfully uneducated about these conditions. Parents, schools, and institutions often lack the resources, training, and willingness to help those who suffer from them. Instead of offering support, they impose unrealistic expectations—expecting these individuals to “rise above” their impairments, to push forward as though they are not at a severe disadvantage. But those expectations are not just unfair; they are impossible. And when these individuals inevitably fall short, they are left feeling inadequate in every conceivable way.

    Without proper guidance, treatment, and a support system, these individuals become untethered, drifting through life with no real direction. They struggle to integrate into their communities, to build stable lives, to find meaningful work. Many are left with no choice but to resort to desperate and sometimes destructive means to survive. It’s as if they are thrown out to sea without a boat, without supplies—left to flounder until they inevitably drown. They cycle in and out of the justice system, unable to meet even their most basic needs, and yet society has the audacity to look down on them, to label them as lazy, as hopeless, as burdens.

    Richard was failed—by the adults in his life, by institutions that should have intervened, by his own family, by a system that had no space for someone like him. And he is far from the only one. This is a vicious cycle, a crisis that repeats itself generation after generation. Everyone complains about it, yet no one does anything to fix it. The same people who claim to value justice turn a blind eye to the root causes of crime, to the suffering of those who never had a chance to begin with. It is gut-wrenching. It is infuriating. And it is a reality that will persist until we stop blaming the victims of this cycle and start holding accountable the very systems that set them up to fail.

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    1. Richard is a prime example of someone who fell through the cracks, and the ongoing support he needed wasn’t there. It is hard to say whether, in his case, it would have made a difference, or even if he realised his upbringing was severely lacking in stability. After all, he knew no different. His brothers cousins had been robbing, taking drugs and in and out of jail for most of his early life. To him, this was normal. To us, of course it’s anything but. His parents lost control of three of their sons, and their other two children also had massive problems.

      Many people are fixated with a black and white idea of “right and wrong” and are not willing to see the lived reality of those they consider inferior.

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  4. You know what I find absolutely ridiculous? It was painfully obvious that Richard was not in the right state of mind. Anyone could see it. Even in the small clips from his court appearances, you could tell he was struggling—mentally, cognitively, or both. And yet, despite this being so evident, the prison system did next to nothing to help him.

    From his time in L.A. County Jail to S.F. County Jail to San Quentin, what meaningful effort was ever made to treat or even alleviate the effects of his cognitive and mental disorders? As far as I know, the most they ever did was occasionally give him medication for his headaches. Beyond that? Nothing. No real intervention. No real treatment. And then they had the audacity to complain about his erratic and inappropriate behavior, as if it was some shocking development. No shit, Sherlock!

    You take someone with serious underlying issues, lock them in one of the most grueling and dehumanizing environments possible, offer them no real help, and then expect them to remain stable? To be “normal”? It’s absurd. People who know nothing about his condition—people who have never even glanced at his psychological evaluations or learned about his personal and family history—are quick to slap labels on him: pedo, rapist, schizophrenic. They use these words without understanding, without context, without care. But those who have taken the time to actually understand him—who have read the evaluations and looked beyond the media’s twisted portrayal—can at least recognize why he acted the way he did in prison. They can empathize, even if they don’t excuse.

    To me, prisons and jails are not rehabilitation centers in any sense of the word. They don’t “correct” anything; they break people, trap them, and set them up for failure. And for those who do make it out, the shackles never truly come off. They may walk free, but the system ensures they remain anchored to their past, stuck in a cycle they were never given the tools to escape. The idea that someone can just “turn their life around” after being locked away without support is nothing more than a cruel joke.

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    1. As far as we’re aware, he received no treatment, beyond his headaches.
      I think on Death Row you’re an animal awaiting slaughter, I doubt anyone cared about his erratic behaviour at all.
      If I remember correctly, in one of the psych evaluations (I don’t recall which) it states he had received no medication.

      I agree, it is obvious his behaviour in court (the little we can see) isn’t normal. Do you remember the psychiatrist in the public gallery who said that he wasn’t competent to stand trial? She had the impression that he didn’t have a clue what was going on around him.
      Many claim cognitive difficulties and disorders are non-existent and made up; if only they’d do a little research before taking to their keyboards.
      “Smartest criminal”? Only in Carrillo’s wildest imagination.

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      1. The fact that a psychiatrist sitting in the gallery—without ever having spoken to Richard ,could immediately recognize that he was not in the right mental state to stand trial speaks volumes. Yes, she was trained to read body language, microexpressions, and behavioral cues, but even without specialized training, it was painfully obvious to anyone paying attention that Richard was nowhere near competent enough to face a capital trial. His disoriented, detached demeanor, his inability to meaningfully engage in his own defense—these weren’t just quirks or defiance. They were glaring red flags, warnings that were ignored because the system was determined to see him executed, no matter the cost.

        And that leads to a much deeper issue, one that stretches far beyond Richard’s case. Death Row is not just a place of punishment—it is a place of abandonment. A limbo where inmates are stripped of their humanity and left to waste away, out of sight and out of mind. It isn’t about rehabilitation, nor is it about justice in its truest sense. It is about finality, about the system washing its hands of those it has condemned.

        Do you know who Dorothea Dix was? She was one of the most prominent figures in the prison reform movement of the 1800s here in the United States. A fierce advocate for the indigent mentally ill, she fought tirelessly to change a system that viewed prisoners as disposable. She championed the idea that prisons should not just be places of punishment, but of rehabilitation and reform. She pushed for better conditions, for proper medical care, for the idea that even those society cast aside deserved dignity. She understood that mental illness should not be a death sentence, that those suffering should be treated, not discarded.

        If Dix could see the state of our prison system today, she would be horrified. In many ways, we’ve regressed. Rather than prioritizing rehabilitation, we fixate on punishment. Rather than addressing the root causes of crime, we expand the prison system. Mental illness isn’t treated—it’s criminalized.

        If true prison reform were implemented—if rehabilitation took precedence over endless incarceration—the prison population would shrink. Yet every year, the numbers climb, and the system’s only response is to build more prisons, more cells, more cages. It’s a relentless cycle, driven by the misguided belief that incarceration is the only solution.

        It’s idiocy at its finest! A failure not just of policy, but of basic humanity.

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